Some of the kindest hearts have felt the most pain...

A year ago I would have never thought I would be where I am today…everything has changed. Life is crazy, one minute you’re the happiest girl ever and the next your world comes crashing down. The overwhelming rush of anxiety starts to begin, the pounding in your chest, and you begin to panic because it feels like you can’t breathe. Sometimes it feels like your chest is going to cave in and the only thing stopping it are the gasps of air you take in-between the tears. Every time you shut your eyes you picture how life use to be and wake up quickly in tears, because it’s gone. Or the fears of dreaming because everything is back to normal for once but when you wake up you’re back in your worse nightmare. You don’t want to sleep alone because you’re afraid of feeling alone. And in these moments you can’t imagine how you’re going to get through this, because no matter how many times people tell you “its going to get better I promise” or “time will heal.” You don’t believe them, because when you’re happy time goes by fast, and when you’re sad you don’t know how you’re going to get through the day. Minutes feel like hours, and days feel like years. It’s sad that behind the prettiest smiles hold the deepest secrets; some of the prettiest eyes have cried the most tears…and some of the kindest hearts have felt the most pain.

It all hurts because it mattered. Saying goodbye is the most painful way of solving a problem. Sometimes we expect more from others because we would be willing to do that much for them. However, just because the past didn’t work out like you wanted it to, doesn’t mean your future cant be better than you ever imagined. If you’re going through something I’m not going to be the person that say “its going to get better, I promise” because the only people who think there’s a time limit for grief, has never lost a piece of their heart, take all the time you need. But I am going to tell you that you’re not alone, and I look back at my darkest days and it’s truly amazing how far I have come since then. I still have good and bad days, and I will never forget my darkest days. My best advices when you’re going through moments that are unbearable is to stay strong and push through; make them wonder how you’re still smiling even though you’re hurt. The only thing you can do is making yourself better, strive harder for your goals and never stop believing. And to always be patient sometimes you have to go through the worst to get to the best.

Smile always! XOXO, Megan